Got my Pole emploi appointment a couple weeks ago. Nothing really changed. I am still listed as searching a job as a secretary/assistant. I tried to talk to my counselor about my different wishes: going into translation, maybe going back to school to finish/get my degree. Or be an English teacher, but not at a school, it would be more like a trainer, who helps adults getting their bases back and improving their existent English. But that would mean interacting with humans, and I don’t know if I can handle that too much.
People advise me to go into tourism cause I can speak the language but the more I think about it and the less I wanna go there. It would mean interacting with people, a shit load of people, and that would be too much for me.
I would like something chill where I would only interact with a couple of people, where I wouldn’t have to force myself to be pleasant and available.
I already have to do that every night greeting my cousin’s clients and it’s taking a toll on me. My cheerfulness is slowly turning into cheerlessness.
I hate being so picky about this, who am I to have such demands ? UGH.
I am still feeling so lost in this and the counselor is not of great help, especially when you try to turn to a bilingual environment.
I also applied for a secretary position at a school where I live. I am still waiting for a call to set an interview date. wish me luck !
I am also seeing a therapist, after all these years in emotional and psychological limbo. It is such a relief to finally be able to pour all my emotions out of my head. To put words and tears on all my sufferings.
At least I have someone to talk to.
It’s been more than a year since I’ve moved here and I still have to make friends with people. Being the misanthropist that I am, I am having a hard time adapting to the mentality here. The people here are so shallow and so eager to criticize people about their looks, their jobs, their whatever they’re doing. Who fucking cares ?
Also, they really listen to shitty music and read the worst books (50 shades and other nonsense), I feel like I am in an intellectual desert. I know I haven’t met the right people, but where do I have to go to find people whom I can click with ? Ahhhhjhjh
Well at least the scenery here is beautiful 😌
