The floor is sanity.

The floor is sanity.

TW: abus sexuel, inceste, self-hate A l’origine ce post était protégé par un mot de passe. J’ai décidé de l’ouvrir pour préserver la continuité avec mes nouveaux posts. THE FLOOR IS ALSO LES CONCORDANCES DE TEMPS. RIEN A FOUTRE. Nous sommes le Samedi 17 Juin 2017, il est 13.05, le soleil est en train de cramer la race de toute la terre, il n’y a pas un nuage en vue et je suis en pyjama dans mon lit en train…

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We’re doomed.

We’re doomed.

Yay, news from the front ! Well … “front”, I am now the owner of a car. Marvelous, isn’t it ? Not that awesome, it’s a polluting means of transport, but I really needed one to go to and from work. I was borrowing my aunt’s car and it was really annoying for her and for me. At least now I can go anywhere I want, whenever I want, for whatever reason I want, and not have to ask anything…

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We’re all gonna die.

We’re all gonna die.

But not today ! Just thought about my blog today and said “Oh what if I wrote a little post just to let the world know what’s happening in my life ?”  (Hi Axx !) So yeah, remember that application I sent ? I got the job so now I’m watching kids during the meal time, I’m watching kids during their afternoon activities then I clean their shit after class. YAY I GOT A FUCKING JOB AHHHHHHHHHHHHH That was basically…

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Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.

Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.

No, the title isn’t foreshadowing some gruesome destiny for me, don’t worry. I just liked the sound of it for a new title ! So much to say, so little time. I keep getting sidetracked by a myriad of other things to do, like writing a cover letter for a potential job, running left and right to assist family, learning to sew and actually sewing, which takes quite some time. No I’m still not dead, even if the thought of…

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Leap year, leap life

Leap year, leap life

Oh dang, not another one of those whiny posts ? What on earth have I done to Cthulhu to be graced with such a prolific mind in the complaining department ? Don’t worry, I will try not to complain too much even if it’s my life motto. You know what ? Talking to a therapist might not be such a good idea after all because I still hide many things from her. And even though I tell a lot of…

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Fucking people

Fucking people

I’m fucking baffled by the reaction of some people. You mind your own business, watching TV with your aunt when someone knocks at the window, it’s a migrant, it’s super cold outside, he says that he’s hungry, at first you’re scared but then you realise those guys must be even more scared than you. You’re in your warm little house, watching TV and they’re outside in the cold. You had a good meal and they’ve been walking for hours in…

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What do ?

What do ?

Got my Pole emploi appointment a couple weeks ago. Nothing really changed. I am still listed as searching a job as a secretary/assistant. I tried to talk to my counselor about my different wishes: going into translation, maybe going back to school to finish/get my degree. Or be an English teacher, but not at a school, it would be more like a trainer, who helps adults getting their bases back and improving their existent English. But that would mean interacting…

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Mourrance

Mourrance

Ah tiens c’est vrai j’ai un blog…. Qui ne sert à rien et que personne ne lit de toute manière. Bonne occasion de déverser mon vomi mental. J’ai passé le toeic et j’ai eu 990 sur 990. How fucking wonderful that I got a certification for my own personal pleasure that will never be of use to me. I am feeling as hopeless as last year, it’s been a year since I’ve come to my aunt’s and nothing has changed….

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Plonger dans le grand bain

Plonger dans le grand bain

It’s already been 2 weeks since I started my TOEIC training session, 3 weeks to go and it will be time to take the test. I am not that worried about it, the practice tests the trainer has given us gave me outstanding results (look at me, praising my self like a pompous ass). The training has been really beneficial to me, getting back into a work schedule is good, maybe this time I’ll keep the schedule and will stop…

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C’est mal parti ..

C’est mal parti ..

Hahaha allez encore une dizaine de jours et ça aurait fait un mois que je n’aurais rien posté sur le blog. Non pas que les idées me manquent, au contraire, je pars dans tous les sens et ne parviens pas à me retenir, je suis une éjaculatrice précoce de la plume, ou plutôt du clavier. Ajoutons à cela le stress de la vie de parasite social, les rdv pôle emplôa, la terreur du CV vide, la peur de la psychologue du…

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